I really wish I had never married this man.

I really wish I had never married this man. I dont know what is keeping me in the union but oh no, I dont have any happy time with him. He is not committed at allllllllllllll, am in pain, deeply sad and sorrowful. He is promiscuous, have speech issues and maybe memory issues. Very had to please and make this difficult always. He'd rather please outsider than me making me and the kids happy. When I got pregnant, I only received 100k from him to buy infants items as I had twins, I funded every other things and not that he doesnt have money. We build our house together but his family sees him as their Lord and this man train his cousins, nieces, and now had the mind to tell me again that he has adopted another child of his cousin to sponsor. He never pays our kids school fees 100%, I'll always have to balance the rest cos I do not want embarrassment from their school.